Reflecting...

...on life in the mental and physical sense can be painstaking and eye-opening.

I say this after coming out of my Tuesday morning bible study.

(If you haven't done a Beth Moore Study I say do it).

Upon arriving at church, I always say a prayer walking into the door, "God just speak into my heart this morning, and resonate what you want me to hear".

I'll be honest, it doesn't always happen.

Not the way I think it should.

Maybe it's words from a friend or relative.

This morning, it clicked.

I'll share of that shortly.

As you know and have kept up with my blog, It's evident that I need to find a job based on what I have shared.

I need to somehow $upplement funds big time what I have coming in.

It's constant where I can't participate in outings due to not being able to afford the gas money.

Or driving down to San Diego and being at a family gathering and chipping in for food or a restaurant or a gift for someone's birthday.

At times it's overwhelming thinking about it.

So my mindset is I can't keep apologizing for not going, or doing something.

It is what it is.

With that I keep knocking on doors for employment and it's the same exact answer.

No.

As my fellow prayer warriors have said, it's clear your not to be working.

Right now.

So this morning, I was in a state of reflection 'trying to figure it out'.

But you know what? I don't need to figure anything out.

It's already done for me.

I'm given this season in life to be in all these fabulous studies and learning more than I ever thought was possible.

Remember I said I would share shortly, well, inside my book for the chapter this week the very last take away sentence went something like this, "Sometimes the Joy and Anguish is for you being renewed".

I circled that, and felt that there are bigger things around the corner that are good and nothing with Corporate America, where is my identify had been for so long.

I'm also first and foremost at home with me child taking her to school daily  in my getup that looks like a Dr. Seuss the Grinch dress rehearsal (colorfal and mismatched).

I'm there in the afternoon when she needs me.

 I'm able to help keep her focused on her daily work for the homework packets.

Also getting those special assignements done.

My laundry and housework is on schedule.

I'm blessed, very much so.

I'm in a season of GOD growing me and waiting for his time not mine, for that next door to open.

Where do you hold your identity?

God bless your day!

Vi